I was blessed to be able to get the Kindle edition of the guidebook to accompany these cards. I have seen the physical cards in action in my Tarot classes where we are learning different spreads you can use (since spreads for Tarot can be used for oracle cards and vise versa). They have been pretty amazing.
However, I hadn't had a visceral experience of them before in my own life, until fairly recently. I was reading the guidebook one evening and my spirit guides directed to me look at specific cards by number. They had a message for me. Now for a bit of context, for the majority of April I was experiencing more post-traumatic stress symptoms than is now usual for me, and experiencing a serious uptick in migraines. I wasn't in a very good place a lot of the time, though I did my best to bring in the energy of joy and laughter and love in my life.
Here are three of the cards, edited screenshots from the e-book, used with permission by the author, Rita Morgin. Click on the images to enlarge them.
When I read these words,
"I trust and allow your right to exist,"
my breath caught in my throat. I stopped breathing for a moment, stunned to be reading those words. Previous spiritual experiences were recalled into my mind all at once, like a split screen TV, and I remembered the words they told me previously, "You are worthy because you exist," and the struggles of still feeling like I have to justify my existence, to be worthy of it.
I read on,
"your right to breathe,"
and suddenly I started breathing again,
"and I trust that your heaven on Earth causes me no harm,"
and I just wanted to cry, because somewhere, deep inside me for so long, I had the belief that I was dangerous, that somehow despite all my best intentions, I would end up hurting people. (Systemic childhood abuse is a doozy.)
The felt my pulse quicken, my eyes widened, pupils dilating because suddenly the room was brighter, as I read these words:
"We no longer have a need to create painful experiences as normal. The universe invites you to create a 'New Normal' with joy and ease. ... As you create your 'new normal', you may find it easier to choose that any pain you are experiencing is no longer your body's 'normal' but only a temporary transition as you heal."
And now, the tears came. Reading this.
Context. In my trauma group therapy we talked about how after the traumatizing experience that your body changes and responds to the world differently, creating a new normal for you. They say this is a way of radical acceptance, because in order to truly heal from something, you have accept everything about it as being what it is, including post-traumatic stress symptoms no matter how debilitating they can be. This is important because we often get angry at ourselves at our bodies for reacting to events now as if they are the events then, and having all these different trauma responses. The reality is my body gave me the gift of survival. It broke up all the pain into little pieces so I could survive in a toxic environment, for which I am truly grateful.
But somehow, even though I believe in healing, even though my symptoms have dramatically reduced over the years, especially post 2016 when I started getting targeted therapy, I had entirely missed that at some point a new normal will be created, and here it was, taking me by the collar and saying YES, you can now have a NEW new normal! Such a radical, heartening, hopeful notion. A new normal, where I don't have to keep being in pain for pain I have experienced to be valid.
I cannot wait to have this card in my hands so I can hang it up as a reminder when I'm having a harder time with things.
I then had to laugh at this one. I have been doing a lot of ancestral healing, and oh, I have one story that's. . . . a thing. I have been intending to write about it for a while, I think I will have to now. Anyway, the whole
"clearing and calming the agitation"
just really made me laugh, because so many in my ancestral line are stuck in their ways. The wise ancestors that I have, the ones who are healed, go back so so very far in our line it's ridiculous. But maybe I'm judging them too harshly, and that's what the reminder was. That yes, miracles happen but those miracles are a relationship with myself, the land including those who once lived where I live, and my ancestors. An interplay. Harmonizing it together because these three aspects are all part of the same symphony. And to me that is what is meant when it says in the guidebook
"supporting a 'Miracles Happen' attitude."
This reading was everything I needed.
I absolutely pre-ordered this deck. One for me, one for a sister. Every card comes with an meditation! I really want to experience the meditations with these cards, especially creating a new normal.
I also want to include what I wrote to Rita about this deck and the impact it has had on my life. This is what I wrote to her:
And one final thing, I really enjoy the synergy of angelic, shamanistic, and faery energy in this deck.
I absolutely adore this deck and cannot wait for my own. Rita, you have been so thoughtful in how you have constructed it and energy that you have infused into the cards. Every color choice, every line, has a meaning and purpose, and I love that. The power of these cards as you have created them, has been made evident in my Meetup classes when you bring them and use them.
I am so excited to get my own deck. I love YOUR energy, and what YOU have done with the cards, and what wonderful energy you are bringing in. At first blush they appear to simple, but Jesus was also a simple carpenter and look at the healing power he brought to the world. It is the same with these cards. I am so grateful to you for having created them, and for being so in tune to the Universe to bring in what's needed into the world for us to heal our spaces.
You are freakin' amazing for doing this, and oh, I'm tearing up, it means so much to me. Thank you so much. I am sensitive to energy and your energy that you are bringing into the cards is so good and so needed, and I have already been blessed by their presence. <3
Stay sane, safe, and well my peeps!